my n o w

months have passed, much has changed

the stories keep unfolding and it comes with pain

the pain is the awareness that things were not right

i was holding onto a narrative ever so tight

the reality i clung to, the one i still find myself falling back into at times

is not the truth, it is separate of the divine

when i lean into g-d. trust with all my might

peace settles in my and i see the light

i have been shown miracles, blessings and love

i feel the energy around me and i know it is love

from the outside it may appear that life has taken a flop

but i know that all is meant to be, and i feel on top

i feel calmness, a peace inside, it flows, but i know it is there now, it is a deep knowing that i am being held 

i am sure that i am 

i am sure that this is exactly in divine order

i am sure that i am doing the best i can and each day i strive to take another step towards grace , forgiveness, and acceptance

i am thankful for the being i am, i am thankful the truth i feel

i am still healing, i am ok with that

i am ok to grow, heal, love ….the beauty in the experience of life itself is the gift

i am very aware of my many blessings and i see. i see the blessings. i am also aware that i am here to nurture myself. i will not sacrifice the way i feel inside and compromise for another for that will not be my truth

i have my own back now, i will keep moving in that direction, learning, healing, growing, accepting  and practicing non- attachment, amen